welcome to the new year.

yes, welcome. i figured a new year calls for a new blog. mainly i cant remember my old login info. sooo...starting fresh. :]


lets see, whats happened to me since last august when i last blogged. well, first off. derrick left on his mission. which was depressing but also meant that i finally got to go back to preston and visit for the weekend. which was AWESOME! i missed it a lot. however, just one short week later derrick returned home. not gonna give a whole lot of details but, it wasnt really a good thing. is it ever really a good thing when someone returns home early from their mission?

nothing really exciting happened after that until like...december. now that was a rough month. my great grandpa ace had been getting some pretty serious health problems so the family decided to move him up to preston from arizona. everyone was worried he wouldnt make it. but he did. barely. he got settled in at the heritage home and his health just continued to decline. my grandpa and all his brothers went one night to give him a blessing. and during that blessing he passed away. its crazy to think but they pretty much felt him go. and they also felt comfort knowing it was his time because they were in tune enough with the spirit to recognize it. i think its an awesome ending to his amazing life. he is the best example anyone could ever ask for in the life. when i found out i told my dad i wanted to be there for the funeral. i didnt care how much work i would have to take off. so he got plane tickets for my sisters and i to fly down and i got to spend a week there. which was really great. i loved seeing my family unite for the weekend of his funeral. i met people i had never seen before. so in a way, it was good. as well as sad.

on my last day in preston i got in a car accident with my bestie jessica. it was crazy foggy and she rear ended a national guard car. talk about picking the wrong fights. ha, it was pretty intense since i had to fly home the next day. which i do not recommend. to anyone. it hurts a lot. my boss wouldnt let me work for a few weeks cause she wanted me to recover so for the first time in a long time i sat around doing nothing but sleeping. and i felt soo lazy. but i needed it. lol

the end of december, and the year was pretty fun. christmas was a blast as usual. but i was really missing my beckstead christmas. i have grown so used to the whole family being together that it felt lonely to just have my mom, stepdad and sister. the end of the year also brought on a bunch of changes for my life. i registered in a massage techniques class that has been really cool. at the end of it i can work in a spa or from my home or wherever i want really. i broke up with derrick. which was really hard. and awkward. we hung out at his house for new years which was the day after i told him i want to break up. i think this is a really good thing even though its depressing for both of us. i prayed about it for a while and i just felt like this is what we both need. space. and time to focus and accomplish what it is we really want in our lives. sometimes someone you love can hold you back without meaning to and i think thats pretty much what was happening.

and the last decision i made is to move back to idaho. im going to be moving in with my friend kayla who i love to death. and i've looked into a cna class at bridgerland that i really want to get into. hopefully i'll be able to pick up my old job at subway long enough to do that class and find a better paying job. fingers crossed. :]

edit:: oh and somewhere in there richard moved to washington! so i've had someone to do nothing with! baha :]

and thats about where my life is sitting right now. its pretty crazy how far i've come in the last few months. and im loving every step of the way. :] :]